Arnott & Termination.

Florida is one of the most uninhabitable states in the United States in my opinion. If every locals around you treat you like one of those unknowing women - loosely dressed, speaks in a vulgar manner with (likely) a bad dental hygiene with equally oxygen-deprived brain - then you're likely in trouble, whether you speak second language or not.

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New York was harsh. First there was this unlikely "relationship" I was put into with a blonde dude with Asperger's - which was slightly evolved version than meeting through kindergarten. I basically punked it by declining to come due to car issues when he invited me to his family garden/villa.

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.....By that at least I don't feel like death is coming at my door yet. It's more like I've rather became calm over experiencing extremely fast-paced sets of being hired & fired at multiple times in a row after moving South. ..Which is, strange enough for me. ..Unless it was the case that I'd stayed in my native country of origin (Korea) - then things would have been much different I bet - if not for the better.

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The statement 'I don't wanna give up yet' would both chagrin & annoy me gravely at this moment. Esp. when I've just been somehow considering Nude Photography (Besides Art Therapy for trauma and facilitated sex) in my head while having just learned of Lewis Latimer's name recently from a Twitter account that deals with black history specifically. And matter of fact was that I do have a history of drawing, for a length of time ever since when. ...Just not in a very technical manner.

It does not mean that I'm willing to sit down and start playing the most dedicated artist of the year yet, so much so the 'Art' I did over my minor years were virtually rooted in the what's called Japanese Animes - meaning contemporary in nature. Stuff would just prove how much of an environmental product a human being these days could turn out to be in my most humble opinion, whereas in simple words, things would just "shuck (like an) ass" eventually at some point in one's dear life in this material-trodden society.

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-Padoson (파도손).

You don't really need a degree - nor governmental position to discuss the stuff that you've been through in person. Whether over here or elsewhere.

I lacked a lot ever since. I was a fat grandchild who ate instant snacks incessantly and preferred computer screens over physical contact with similar age groups; while my grandma who was my sole caretaker was also the model K-drama addict.
I got into reading 'bootleg local mangas' over getting better grades, while my realities in both at home & school were either gloomy or mediocre at best. Means if I was never happy for reasons, I just wasn't.

I get the hype. Whether you were an attractive teenager with everything to get, or an ill senior now sick & ailing at one's own residence/hospice care - it's like anyone can read through everyone else's minds on what they want for themselves, whether that was this Century, or this very place I'm residing in, or it was all (somehow) thanks to YouTube.
Sex doesn't even have to come into account, so much so division was there with all its invisible vile within; where human society has remained so ever since mankind waged war on other foreign territories in the random-most places.

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I came out as an Asexual once. Or more like tried coming out. Then I find myself taking nude photos of me one night. Which is, completely weird - besides going into Yoga for 'TMJ pain'. It happens...

I do feel the pain - not just my "jaw pain", but the overall of what I've just mentioned above. That's why I could watch 'a ton of women's films' with all its imageries containing horrible violence in them, yet still be able to 'understand' somehow.


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For one, besides this physical facial asymmetry stuff going on with me whatnot (*=opposite from 'staying pretty bitchface'), I'm in the weirdest of all places - lives in a fairly large house with 'good neighborhoods' & pool right behind; yet alone like the social hermit, ALL THE TIME. ...Which does not sound very good, except for the WiFi connection here that I have zero idea what to do say that it goes out for good.



....I'd probably try to relax my jaw firsthand. Now that's one way to go.

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